Monday, July 31, 2006

With Love From Me

Dear You...
Since writing you a letter is impossible at this time here is my poor attempt at letting you know.
Thank you for helping to create some of the best memories of my life
Thank you for pursuing me the way every girl dreams of being pursued
Thank you for taking the time to listen
Thank you for the taking the time
Thank you for being vulnerable
I hope one day you will love your Mum just a bit more with your eyes wide open
I hope you will care for her the way she deserves to be cared for
I hope you become the big brother I know you can be
I hope you do stay single for a while and really look at you alone for a while
I pray you continue to write
I pray you continue to use your photography skills to bless others
I hope you know one day that I loved you, but you see...
I walked away because I began to love who I saw you becoming rather than who you were
It was not fair to you and so for the benefit of you and me, I left.
No man wants to be loved for who they could be, but for who they are.
So this is my letter to you.
May you have a wonderful life whever you go.
Good night to you.

With Love From Me

Sunday, July 30, 2006

God's Smile

Life allows you to travel through it

Discovering the things that bring you great joy

A sense of self, love, and a servants heart

It is is in these moments where I believe God takes great joy

And smiles down on us

Saturday, July 29, 2006


So when I began writing here I had grand dreams for what my writings would be about
It was the beginning of a new season I thought
One filled with love, hope, a sense of belonging
How far wrong I was, not even 24 hours of that ideal everything came crashing down
Each month that passes by, each day that enters my life I see a bit more of me
I am discovering a depth I never knew was there and a playful side that missed coming out
I am a woman with many firework shows to write about
I am a girl that just wants to go for a walk through the orange grove
It was the beginning of a beautiful firework show, but sitting from a different view

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Freedom Moments

Freedom Moments...
Its learning what this looks like
And how this is supposed to be in ones life
Never have I had so many moments
I can keep running from it
Or I can embrace it as one embracing the sun after a long stormy night
Its the sweet simple moments were I see freedom running in
It's in the less dramatic moments were I hear the LORD speak softy
This my daughter is what I have intended for you
This is what it has been about
This is how it is supposed to be
Even with the world spinning around and nothing seems quite settled
This is what it means to experience true freedom
Be satisfied
Continue on the Journey
Freedom Moments are some of my favorite moments in life

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Close to the Heart

As she got out from the car she looked around
It was all so much to take in
Her lungs filled with the sweet mountain air
Her heart began to fill with a pain unexplainable
Her face was alit with the sun beaming bright
Each step she took was one closer to an answer
Each step was one closer to a closure she sought
Then in one moment
One look at that face her heart broke
Her heart cried out in a pain she had with held
She stared straight into those eyes that only wanted to speak the truth
She stared straight into those eyes that only wanted to speak of hope
She is sorry she had not spent more time
She was sorry she had not said I love you more
She loved him
She truly believed a sad truth in the world
That some things you don't realize how much you love them
Until they are but a memory

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Summer Conversations

We are who we are
Time continues on as we continue to make choices
Some of the best conversations come with this large mass before us
There is something about it that just makes me want to share
There is something about it that reminds me that You are right there
There is something about it that reminds me it is ok to share
We have become a bit stronger because of what we have walked through together
We have laughed a little bit more
We have shared a bit more than most
Thank you for helping me to discover a bit more of life in ways I only dreamt of
Thank you for sharing with me your life that is like a secret book
We are who we are and for now that is good enough

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Saturday, July 08, 2006

I am becoming

I am taking care of myself
It is the first time in a long time
It is a process of denying and receving
Much of my life has been about receiving
Yet when I look at my life now...
I am so much more fulfilled in the letting go and denying aspect
Each day is a new lesson
A new challenge
A new adventure
I am becoming that girl that dances as though no one is watching
I am becoming that girl that truly lives in the day
I am becoming someone I enjoy being around

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Worth a Million Words

One of my most amazing friends took this of me in Greece. The moment she showed it to me we both sat there in silence for a while. It was one of those pictures you could only capture once. We did not take the time to practice this shot over and over, it just happened and the thing is this picture reveals so much. Much of my life at this present stage that I will never be able to put into words, but she and I know. She and I know that this picture truly does speak a million words. Thank you my dear friend for capturing a moment in my life I hope to never forget.

With Love...Me