Tuesday, April 28, 2009


Life truly has a funny way of changing things up for you. I got the chance to spend some time in Colorado close to Denver this week for work. The last time I had been in the Denver area was in 2005 when one of my close girl friends and I took a road trip from her home there, back to college in California.

I had been to Colorado when I was little but hadn't really remembered much from that trip with my parents (plus we had covered several other states, so everything kind of clumps together). Over the period of time we spent before our road trip back to school I came to the conclusion that Colorado was not for me. It was a great place, but I felt somewhat claustrophobic...I have a love of water, big bodies of water, and Colorado just didn't have that. Anyways, it has become a running joke within my close circle of friends to mock the fact that I feel claustrophobic within a state.

So when I found out I was going back to Colorado I decided to go with an open mind and give it another chance. And I did exactly that. Within my week in Colorado I came to admitting that I liked it, I liked it a lot more than I had. Colorado had its unique beauty and charm. The people were warm and friendly. And I had the chance to experience what seemed to be three seasons all within the same day. Just goes to show that anything is truly possible.

Monday, April 27, 2009

Life and It's Little Surpises

So I had a visitor come from New Zealand and spend three weeks with me, but after those three great adventuring weeks were over my world went into over-drive. I got on a plane the very next day for Denver, Colorado. Now some of you know my feelings for Colorado, but I will save those thoughts for another blog. So after landing, getting my rental car with an incredible GPS system, I made my way to the hotel out in Broomfield. I got settled that night, ordered room service, and slept like a log; it was wonderful.

I had left my curtains open just a tad and when my eyes adjusted the next morning I thought I saw rain pouring down (which I had expected since I had checked weather.com about 10 times before leaving California). I made my way over to the curtains to discover it was not rain, but a light snow storm...an unexpected snow storm by all. It truly was something wonderful to experience, since snow is not a common occurrence in Orange County and well I enjoy a little bit of snow here and there!

Friday, April 24, 2009

Hello Out There

Can you hear me?

Can you possibly be out there as I stand hear yelling?

The echos of so many stories

So many aching and broken hearts

Can you hear this?

Can you hear this my truly raw and unbridled story

This is me and this is who I am

Can you hear me?

As I take one step farther and farther away

How is this possible and how can it be?

Hello out there, can you even hear me?

Standing here on the edge watching the lights change color

Sitting hear in the car with nothing but mist and water in my view

It wasn't supposed to be like this

It wasn't meant to ache and somewhat break like this

Hello out there

Can you hear me?

Come back.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Sleepless Nights

You bring out the best in me
You show up and are present
You tell funny jokes
You bring out the lighter and not so serious side of me
You affirm me when I fall down
You speak right to me and don't ever seem to miss a beat
You are the reason I can't sleep at night
You are the reason why my brain won't slow down or turn off
It is you I owe these sleepless nights too
These truly wonderful sleepless nights that I would not trade for anything
Because before I know it
I will be sleeping again
Only to be missing you and wishing for another sleepless night

Wednesday, April 08, 2009


In one day I now know two other people in your circle of friends. And it’s always interesting when people bring their friends, who otherwise probably wouldn’t have any contact with each other, together somehow…because at that moment, three different “Heidi”s collided, a different perception of you from each friend. I wonder how you felt.=)

Thursday, April 02, 2009

What We Are Made Of

When we take risks and don't know the outcome of the risk yet are still willing to follow through shows a lot of who we are as human beings. I am constantly amazed by those who are a part of my life and willing to take risks regardless of the outcome. Thanks Grae for being one of those truly amazing people.