Monday, November 08, 2010

Wanderings of a Mind...

My mind wanders a lot especially in seasons like this. I was so foolish as a child to think that growing pains only occurred between the ages of 11 and 15. 

I tried to prepare myself for what wedding planning would be like ( I think all in all I cared more for what marriage planning would look like rather than wedding planning) and I knew it would look something like this, but I was truly hoping (at least the half glass full Heidi was) that it would be easier. Yes, the idea of getting married on a beach with 10 people around is the ideal in my head, but I also know that for my family and for Graeme and I this is a season to celebrate. 

I wish I could explain it better, these intense feelings, thoughts, and emotions that are running through me, but I can't. I am at a loss for words. I get to spend the rest of my life with my best friend and love and yet in part walking away from the only life I have ever known. There are still a lot of unknowns ahead and so that gives my mind plenty of room to wander...

If anything this has been a one solid comfort...something to fixate on as my mind wanders...

"Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or
arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable
or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the
truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things,
endures all things." 1 Cor. 13: 4-7

Hope and Love two very powerful elements that I should remember to cling to a bit more tightly these days.

1 comment:

Nannette said...

Growing pains are good. Sometimes the answers you receive during this time are imbued with unusual clarity. Much love to you!