It's something we need. Something that makes us feel a part of a whole. I personally function better with it, even though deep down inside an element of community scares me. I keep asking myself, "What am I so afraid of?". And I guess the answer came from here; if I become a part of a community and am exposed for who I really am, will I still be accepted and embraced within this community?
I am scared of rejection.
I am scared of not finding "my place" in a place that it should be so "easy" to find "my place".
I am a daughter of the Most High King and I am scared like I am 6 years old in sea of grown ups hiding behind his rob. I know the truth. So like a big 6 year old I must step from behind the rob and embrace it all...the good and the bad, just like I did back then. Despite how human I am, God gave me something to offer this community. Plus, it's one thing I have going in common with everyone...the area of perfection. We are not perfect. I am not perfect. I mess up, I say hurtful things, I am lazy, I get it wrong. But, I am considered beloved. So I walk in that truth and the knowledge that...
Rejected or not. Christ was embraced and rejected in community. Taken in and outcast. So who better to give this problem, this issue of myself to...then Him.